Happy eight Month Anniversary " Bibi ! " 

See what the time now. and yet i have just wake up. haha. I'm mad right! went school per normal. morning wake up meet justin at my house down stair smoke and slack awhile. went buy sweet if not in class XZJ will be boring until mad want. haha. whole day charting with HLCH. thank for you fucking yongqi! ASS! see la! you la! TAMADA! deal with you tomorrow. haha. after school went one two zero slack with shien , melvin and justin. wtf! give police scene. four police come together. luckily my smoke finsh already lei. But justin leh. haha. thank to his fucking mouth. his cigg bend into half and throw it away. went home at five plus. eat and watch tv. haha. 

I HATE YOU! Why Can't You Give In Now! Haven I Being So Prefect Right Now !

your words hur me once and twice

currently at TTP  a company joanne. i'm so moody now. i really feel like crying out loud since yesterday night. since the words you say out from your mouth make me change. but i don't know why. what should i do? can anyone tell me. out of cigg too. sian. going monday. still planing should i went school on that day. i have already ask you and giving you hints but why can't go give me one chance. i really want to ask you one question since so long. what am i in your heart? don't tell me frined. i don't want be your friend!

I Just Want To Be Your Lover !



I HATE MYSELF! & MY ATTITUDE

WTF ! what happen to my blog? why can't i post picture in? CB! Everything was fine in the school. Happy charting with ex-kaixin. haha. after school stay back for math thing . waste my fucking time.Took eight zero six with ex-kaixin and shiping. went home next. Have my lunch packet by dad. While waiting for my meimei to come back. Went TTP hospital visit Joanne. she look so pill and she had slim down so many. *heart pain* although is bored there but happily talking with Joanne , mummy , hoho and meimei. seven plus walk home with meimei. just eaten my dinner and bath come out. haha. not going out tomorrow. feel like staying at home and do revision. going to pull my meimei study too.

don't know why out of sudden i hate myself so much. not because of my fucking attitude and everything won't become like that right now. He have bear with it for so long too. I'M SORRY! although you have told me about it already but i refuse to change. I will change everything right now and i just want you back. 

JiaYou Xie Zheng Jie ! {:

I'm glad that you look like fine today in school. it seem that you really changing. Jiayou! is not late for you to study now. if not your exam sure fail. Promise me that you can pass with flying colour k! haha. anything you don't know just ask anyone. don't need scare want k. 

our relationship went back to friend. although we are not stead. never mind. i know I'm waiting for you. and i won't give up!

Do you want to patch with me ?

I'm happy that you are out. don't worry everything have past. stay hard right now. jiayou. I'm always be with you. do you know the fist thing go saw you i really really like hugging you tight. but the way you talk it like I'm very extra like that. what happen? did i do anything wrong.

Should I Go To Your Court? 

Having being posting so many day. i really don't know what to do. I'm fucking worry about you. is everything fine? your mother told me you called her yesterday. that was the time i have smile. your court is on Monday. sorry if i go down and you don't wish to see me. if Monday everything is fine then i will go. i really don't know should i go? i really scare you will be angry if i went but your yiting never go. i already help you tell her is she don't want . not i don't let her go want.

I'm sick right now. hope you can hug me right now too . :{

Will You Side Me Or Other?

Do you know your aunties call and told Justin to tell me not to call and contact you. and said you have no hope sure go inside want.YOU NOW MY HEARTS SO PAIN WHEN I HEARD THIS! i don't know why she want say this but I'm sure you will be strong inside. Am i right? i really hope so. don't worry. as what i say. i will still wait for you. i won't care what she said. don't worry i help you to ask my friend already. you in school also never do anything so don't need scare so much. what i can i you i will try all my very best and help.

I'm very worry about you :{

i really miss you :{

They Can't Stop Me For Loving You !

This Is More Pain Then You Ask For Break

Do you know how worry am i? When can you start thinking? 

Haven been sleeping since yesterday. Since your mother told me what happen to you and i have been waiting for your call. I'M REALLY NOT TRIED! I'M REALLY WORRY ABOUT YOU OUTSIDE! 

i know you also don't want all this to happen but too late to regret, just face the fact and BE STRONG! 

i really don't know will you see this but all this is from my heart.

the moment your mother told me you are already going in boys home today. my heart started to broke. i really don't know what to say. I'M REALLY SPEECHLESS! i can't stop crying until now. Do you know i went up your house and talk to your mother? she had cried. I SWEAR! both of us are trying to find ways and help you. 

No Matter What Hope You Can Learn This Lesson And Please Eat Some Food Inside.

your mother told me you look weak and sad when she saw you. The moment i heard this i don't know what to do but just cried.

I Will Try My Best And Help You ! Just Don't Worry .

Be Strong And Take Care Yourself PLEASE!

I Will Always Wait For You Out And Come Back To My Side.

Remember this is our first time meeting at SSC !

Saw your face book heard that your head got scar on your hand? wondering was it fine? is it very bad? 

Never had a good sleep yesterday. Heard from someone that you fell in love with one girl. And both of you always MSG. I'm sorry. I should not interfere. But I'm trying to stop myself.

Going sing K with dad , meimei and step mother. But don't know dad say need eighteen and above. 

Moody Mood Now ! :{

We Are Really Getting More And More Far ! :{

Calling so many miss call to you but you one also never answer. What does this mean to me? i just want to hear your voice is it so hard for you to do it? I'm here worry about you but you are there having fun. Took out my camera and found out all this photo of you. My heart started to melt and cry :{ 

I Really Miss The Times When We Are So Loving !

You Are Just Avoiding Me Right Now ! :{ 

Went Sentosa yesterday with family. sorry guys. you all are going there to have fun but I'm not. Early morning went zhenghua ahma house to visit her. Lol. Back home next. Do some housework. dad friend are at our house drinking. rotted at home. My feeling getting better. Forcing myself not to think about it again. But i still can't stop crying when i saw your our photo.

You eat already! : this word make me smile the whole day since yesterday. Haha

 I understand that you have been tie so long and now you have already untie. I'm sure you are happy with you life now than before. But it alright. I'm sure you will be back to me again. I'm very confidence with it. I'll wait until when it was time and of cause your e-bike bought. i know you want that for so long. i will let your dream come true first. Going sentosa later. Guys I'm alright ! I'm just going there and refresh myself. i really need to be alone and cry out loud.

i miss this time when both of us went out & have fun. Not even that , and the time both of us was hugging talking on the beach.

Never went out today, whole day rotted at home doing nothing. I'm sorry. i can't over come myself to stop calling you. i know everyone think I'm so stupid right now. not even that you guy think after breaking up with him, i will be back like last time. But so sorry to let all of you upset. He really the one that can change me from bad to good. i have really fell in love deeply with him. No matter what, he really a good boyfriend. although sometimes his attitude suck and his mind are still young but i really don't mind all this right now. as long as I'm happy with him, everything will be fine.  i know if we patch back but it won't last , i don't mind. as long as i can hear his sweet talk , smile and the way he care me. I'm very happy with it. everyone think i with him i will suffer but you guy are wrong. i know hid studies suck but who care ? i believe he will think one day. and it won't be too late. 

I really miss your WARM ! :{ 

Silly meimei : I'm fine. thank for your cheering up! last long with him. don't walk my past. time to grow up , think far. Cherish it now. Once it gone it gone. No point regret. Exam coming,study hard. prove to other that we are not stupid. i know you will have no times a company him. as long as you study hard, i promise what you want i will give you. k ! Jiejie love you too.

The moment i saw this photo , my tear drop . 

You told me before that you only " LIKE " boy and not " GIRL " i thought it just a joke but now i really understand . you can be so close with your friend and brother but why not ME !?

Are you really happy with what you have now? Are you really happy when I'm not with you?

But 

I'M NOT !

Staying at mummy house today. Went Yishun Dam with meimei , mummy . hoho , Joanne and mummy boyfriend. Then went woodland Water Fall.

* putting fake smile on my face but no one know*

Nothing much to say. Even i say also no one care neither do HIM! It my first time received such goodnight text from him. It like I'm the one that forcing him to sent goodnight msg.Do you know how hurtful after the thing and i went find you? Ya! pass my wrong. But all this it already pass right. Know what! The first thing after the thing done just now, how i wish when i come out you are hugging me telling nothing happen already and all. but you din even say anything.

Not sure tomorrow going where. But I'm sure it will not be the fun day from me.

mummy : you don't need to give me such face every time. If you don't like i come just say. i won't come and tahan your attitude!

MORNINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG ! haha. Just eaten my breakfast done by meimei. Thank. <3 Wake up the first thing i saw in my phone it his text. *mood change* I'm really speechless ....... i know you want me stop contacting you and care about you,I'm sorry i can't do it.

YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO STOP WHAT I WANT TO DO ! 

Just take it or leave it. someone it there for you to cheer up ans you don't even thank her but saying all this hurtful words. Can you just think before you say! what if I'm the one that saying all this to you and what will you feel? The more you don't me to do SO SAD ! The more i will do! UNDERSTAND! XZJ.

Going to school soon, having PTC later. Pray hard that i never kanna. If not today go home sure let papa cut into pieces. Haha. Having class outing later. Going to bring my PUIPUI go * smile * it since so ling never bring him out and play. Haha. can't wait to see his cute KUKU face! Photo will be out tomorrow! {: 

Changed new blog again. And not even that make my own blog skin. Haha. Loves ttm. Eaten my dinner not long ago with papa and meimei. Chatting about our pass and what had happen to mummy and papa. 

MISSING MY AHMA RIGHT NOW ! :{ 

Going to pray her tomorrow. As what papa promise us.Not even that,after taking about our family past it let me know about how do i make my relationship goes better than quarrel with him every time. 

*hopefully i will have the chance.  

i'm really sick & tried of all this thing. it seem to be bored with it. i really needs someone that can be my part. that really show the way his love me. i always told myself not to give up easy, cause i know it my mistake that make every thing goes like that. but what if you din give me any chance & how am i going to prove to you? it been sometimes i haven been hearing you saying sweet talk to me :{ the most IMPORTANT things that i only want from you it just a simply CARE from you! i'm really afraid of walking in & out the place on my own. & the only things i need it just YOU! 

*just some sweet words like not to be scare I'll be waiting for you here. 

And it just so easy. But WHY CAN'T YOU DO IT!